Happy twenty, Nasreen.

I've been waiting for this for a long time. Finally, I reached this age. Happy birthday to you, Nasreen. Well, kali ni punya birthday aku sambut sorang je. Since, birthday aku pun masa study week, all my friends decided went to their home, while aku kat sini. So sem ni, takde surprise, takde hadiah! No, no way. Hujung sem orang dah miskin teruk doh! By the way, thank you kepada kawan-kawan yang wish, my mom, my dad, my sibs, and also twitter. You all were very nice. Aku cadang taknak balik before habis minggu kuliah lagi sebab yelah aku tahu aku takkan study kat rumah. Lulz sangat nas. Hahah jangan stay kat hostel pun kau tak gerak study bukak notes ke past year, dah laa. 

Hopefully miracle happen and then I'm gonna stop my stupid heir. Yes, kau kene study. Exam just around the corner weh. Banyak lagi tak cover ni. Hm anyway, happy birthday sekali lagi. 

Harapan aku, bila dah cukup umur 20 ni, dah matang laa (as everyone asked me to be mature) yes, I'm working on it. But then, I realised that, mature is not about pretending. I cant pretending to be mature. I can be mature, but I need some time. Kepada yang suka suruh aku jadi matang in any way, thank you I appreciate your warm request. But then, you need to be more patient. As the time flies, I involve in commitment, then I know how that 'matang'. So, sabar sikit. Bukan senang nak jadi matang ni. Matang means, banyak cara and cater banyak bende. Bukan sehari dua, bukan petik jari then terus jadi matang. No. Obviously, that's ridiculous! 

The second harapan, will be, dah dah letu dengan drama air mata kau. Allah.... Drama sangat minah ni.  Kau dah besar, tak payah nak tissue sangat doh. Kau kene kental. Esok nak kerja macam mana? Lagilah kene marah dengan boss. Tambah pulak boss kau jenis yang bekeng 24/7. Kau nak hadap macam mana? So you need to deal with this shit. Kau tak boleh lari, okay Nasreen? 

Okay, enough is enough. For all those sadness that I've been through for 20 years living in this world, thank you so much for my friends and family also for my haters. Kalau korang takde, tak mungkin aku hidup sampai umur macam ni. And yes, thank you to my mom, sebab lahirkan aku and then besarkan aku sampai besar macam ni. Anyway, thanks mom and dad. 

Harapan last aku untuk diri sendiri, stay strong, keep smile and pissed off those people who would like to let you down. Do whatever you want and be yourself. Untuk ending 2017, thank you for being such a wonderful and strong girl, Nasreen. Kau kuat, kene percaya bende tu. So, lepas ni, yakin sikit in any situation yang kau hadap. Papehal pun, goodluck untuk final kau. Kerja keras sikit untuk sem ni. Mudah-mudahan apa yang kau usahakan berbaloi and then niatkan study tu ilmu berpanjangan instead of nak dapat dekan. It's good to dream of dekan. Semua orang pun nak dekan. But then, if kau just niat nak dekan, nak famous, you got none. Lebihkan nak share dengan orang and rasa apa yang kau tak rasa masa matrik. 

Talking about time, I've my own plan. After degree nanti, aku ingatkan nak patah balik diploma Landscape Architecture. I dont know where to study. Or else aku sambung Master in Urban Park design. That's my decision. That's my passion. For now, aku just plan je. But then, apa yang aku kerjakan sekarang ni, tak jadi macam pepatah melayu,"Yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran" So, all the best Nasreen. Takmau sedih-sedih dengan semua bullshits yang jadi masa sem ni. Kau kene kuat, kene banyak bersabar. Everything happened, got hikmah, okay. Trust on urself.